http://www.crazymonkeygurls.com/hotbloggity/rkives/285 Interacting with the homo sapiens the only way we know how. Thu, 10 Sep 2009 14:55:29 -0700 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.8.4 hourly 1 http://www.crazymonkeygurls.com/hotbloggity/rkives/285/comment-page-1#comment-3966 ulmedas Wed, 27 Feb 2008 21:59:58 +0000 http://www.crazymonkeygurls.com/hotbloggity/rkives/285#comment-3966 I go back and forth on that subject. I suspect that I would be in much better emotional state if certain thing had not transpired with certain people. On the other hand, I was involved myself. It's not like I couldn't see something like that coming; it's that I chose not to see it. Ahh, the fear of the what if. I ruins me even today. It keeps me second guessing everything I do and every relationship I become entangled in. It keeps me hanging on to several people that I should not hang on too (damn you myspace and face book and gmail and the rest of the automatons that run our lives.) Shit, I helped my ex-girlfriend's mother move last week. I don't wait for the stars to align as it were, but it would sure be nice. :( I go back and forth on that subject. I suspect that I would be in much better emotional state if certain thing had not transpired with certain people. On the other hand, I was involved myself. It’s not like I couldn’t see something like that coming; it’s that I chose not to see it.
Ahh, the fear of the what if. I ruins me even today. It keeps me second guessing everything I do and every relationship I become entangled in. It keeps me hanging on to several people that I should not hang on too (damn you myspace and face book and gmail and the rest of the automatons that run our lives.) Shit, I helped my ex-girlfriend’s mother move last week.
I don’t wait for the stars to align as it were, but it would sure be nice. :(

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